Ups and Downs of Life

so in life there are your ups and your downs. right now im in one of those downs. i took my car to get it fixed, you know the story. well it turns out i blew the head gasket and cracked the head, that along with replacing the exhaust, installing a fuel filter and a temp gauge has ended up costing me $830 out of my own pocket. so now i have little to no money. which really sucks because im really not used to that and i dont think i can handle it. this means that i have to keep my budget tight so that i can do things like eat, but it also means i cant get everyone the gifts i wanted to get them for xmas, which is the worst part because i love giving gifts at xmas. i love to make other people happy and now i cant do that. i can make a few people homemade gifts but thats about it. i may be overexagerrating. i havent checked my account balance yet but im scared to. this is all just a little too overwhelming. i hope i can get my neice a birthday present for her first birthday, that means a lot to me, at least i'll be there for it though. i cried so much today... ugh i hate crying. and the other thing is exams are killing me, if i dont do good on them, i may lose my scholarship and then who knows what i'll do. im so confused right now. blogging is actually a release, im getting it all out, its helping a little. (sigh) i miss not having my mom or sisters here to talk to me and hug. im getting pretty homesick, but its not like i can just move back up there or anything. i cant wait for xmas. even though it may not be good without gifts to give, at least ill be with my family. right now im so mad at my car. im giving it the cold shoulder. i hate these parts of life. where you're just like, this sucks. i guess everyone gets through it and i will too, i just dont know why it has to hurt so much. ok well im going to go to bed and hope this headache goes away, i'll blog more when i know more. happy thanksgiving, i hope its better than mine.

Thanksgiving Happiness

Yay its Thanksgiving! Bring out the turkey and yams. Dont forget the stuffing YUM. I guess Im going with my uncle, his wife and my cousins up to Deltona to have a couple days of hunting, fishing, and all that other nature junk. Should be lots of fun... Anyways, have fun with your families and no drunk driving. Happy Thanksgiving. I wanna make a shout out to all my family who I cant spend Thanksgiving with, my mom, my sisters (VillainsVanquished and Spysistah,) my big brother and his wife, my dad, my dads girlfreind, my best freind Georgette, and all that distant family of mine.

Job?

So I may be getting a job soon. The MG shop where my car is, needs some part time help. I was thinking if got a job there it would be cheaper to get my car fixed and hey money=good. hmmmm I dont know. Its just manual labor, but it wouldnt be that hard for me, since I have all that experience with my dad and stuff. I'll think about it...

I need a new car

Im getting tired of always having to fix my old little car. I mean I love it to death, but it's just killing me and my wallet. So while being down here in Florida, my car overheated and I had to replace the lower radiator hose, not a big deal right? Well then recently I realized I have a hole in my exhaust, so I took it in to get it fixed and it turns out I blew the head gasket. Which really sucks. So it's in the shop right now, I called my dad so he could clarify what was wrong with it, he's going to call the shop tomorrow. I just wish I had a reliable car. I dont think I can drive it all year round, especially the summertime. I think I'm going to get a job, and buy myself a low cost car, to get me through college. LOL Mom says I can have her car when I graduate, my sisters arent going to like hearing that. I love being the baby. She said she'd let me have it if I let her trade whatever car I have towards her getting a new car. I dont know, uggh and exams are coming up, its making my stomach queasy. I have to get back to studying...