We're NOT keeping Jake

He's just too much dog for us, which is why his previous owners wanted to get rid of him...

So we're going to take him to the Orange County Animal Services center, they will get him fixed and fix all his other problems and find him a nice home...

I think we're gonna stay a one dog home for now... and haha I talk about it like I live there...

My boyfriend is amazing

So yesterday was Shoens 22nd birthday, we had a good day together, I made him a helicopter painting for his birthday and a shadowbox pictureframe thing. We went to a sushi restaurant and played some guitar hero at hardknocks. At dinner I gave him a sappy card that said that I loved him, which is the first time he heard those words, and he got all teary eyed. Well this morning,after shoen left, I woke up to a note on my computer that said...

"Hey Tay, whats up. Your sleeping right now and
i am not all that tired, so i figured i would write
you a letter.
I just wanted to start off by saying, that
i really do like the painting you gave me, its beyond
epic, its great. And thanks for helping my gut with
the chocolates.
I really am crazy about you, these last 3 months have been great, i would not give a day of them up. I feel like i am being robbed though, knowing that i wont get to spend as many that would have been. Moving away from you is going to be like taking handfulls of sand away from the beach, No matter how hard i want to try and hold the sand in my hands, i know it will all slowly slip back into the beach.
Being with you, looking into your eyes, makes the world melt away. It is no longer that i want to hang out with you. Its nothing like a wanting feeling, its if i didnt, my week, my day, would not be any where near complete. You are there when i wake, when i eat, when i sleep.
I will miss my hands running through your hair, and caressing your back, and feet. I will never forget the way you taste on your lips or the way your neck feels when i nibbel on it. Or the look you give me when i am being a dorktard, or when i dont use my blinker. I will remember every great moment we have shared, because they have been beyond awesome, there are no words to explain how great of a time i have had with you.

I love you taylor, not because your sexy, or because your smart and laid back, or because you tolerate my overwhelimg dorkness. I like you because of those in the begining. Now its because i think of you, and just realize how utterly happy i am to have been this lucky, and made it this far. No matter what happens, you will always have a place in my heart, for being everything i have always wanted, and always wish i could of keeped forever.

All i can hope for now,is that the time we have left we hang out like there is no tommorrow, and spend every minute like its our last. Because then at least i know, when i walk out that door for the last time, that i didnt waste a single minute with you. I love you taylor bork. oxox"

I just have the best boyfriend ever, I'm gonna miss him when he's gone..

Jake

So this is Jake, we aren't sure exactly what his breed mix is. He's mostly lab, but his feet and head are HUGE. That may be just because he isn't done growing yet, but it also may be more than that. The hair near his butts kind of shaggy so he may be part Australian Shepherd... Anyway, he's much much stupider than buster. I'm not sure what Chris and April were thinking, but this should be very interesting. I'll keep the blog updated about Jake...

Oh how I have grown

So today, I realized how much I have grown up. I had someone, a friend, who is older, much older, call me asking for advice. He said that his life was getting out of hand, he didn't know what to do, he was having irrational thoughts, almost suicidal, and he needed someone to talk to. He called me, out of everyone he knew. I mean, he is a friend, but its not like we are that close. He is an adult, and the fact that he trusted me out of everyone he knew, that he could rely on me to help him out in this very serious situation, made me realize the amount of respect he has for me, and that he sees me as an adult. I've just grown up so much. I'm not a child anymore, I'm not a teenager, in fact I've almost grown tired of the college life. It all just seems so childish. It's just so strange.... Meet me, the adult...

Its been awhile

It's been awhile since I've blogged, and a lot has happened. Recently something has happened that I just need to talk about, to get out. So, Shoen and I have been dating for a few months now. We haven't had any serious problems, in fact we haven't had a single fight. I could've seen it going somewhere serious, although its been a little awkward, just because he's kind of immature, but as he grew up that would have gone away... so it didn't really bother me. Thing is, he just graduated from his flight school, and he had thought that he'd get a job there, only... all the positions have been filled. So now he has to move away. The closest place would be about an hour and a half away, or he could have to move to texas. He just doesn't know yet. It's all about where he can get the best job. . . . . . .




I'm not sure I can do a long distance relationship though. I just don't know... It could go either way really. I'm so lost right now. I'm sad that he's going, but the adult in me says "it's not really that bad, maybe its for the best." we could still be friends, and move on with our lives... or we could stay together, and let our feelings for eachother grow.... I just don't know...

"You know I think I can explain how you make me feel now. You know when you walk outside for the first time. The air is crisp, the temperature is perfect. Just a few clouds in the sky. The sun isn't too bright and not too dim. And after taking all of that in, you take the first breath. Nice and deep breath and that cool crisp air fills your lungs. And you wish to yourself if only everytime I walked outside it could be just like this. It makes every other day seem so sub par. Perfect in everyway. That feeling is what you do to me every time I see you. You are my perfect day, and I really do love you. And not because you are beautiful and sexy, because it is completely beyond that. When I am with you the rest of the world doesn't exist. Well taylor I hope this didn't wake you up. Sweet Dreams oxoxoxoxox"

This pretty much sums up my new relationship with Shoen. He sent me this last night while I was asleep. He is the most amazing boyfreind I've ever had. He's sweet, thoughful, romantic, sexy, we have a lot in common, he showers me with gift I don't ask for, I just couldn't ask for anything more.

He also took me on the best date I'd ever experienced. I drove out to his place in Titusville, and he drove us to his helicopter academy. Then he took me up in one of the helicopters. This was my first time in a helicopter by the way, and it was amazing. We flew to Cocoa Beach, I took tons of pictures, check em out...
















































Seriously, best date ever. And then after that we went back to his place and took his bike back to Cocoa Beach and had Lobster Dinner at this little sunset restaurant. It was just such an amazingly indescribable day.

Shoen and I are hanging out today again, we're going shopping, or something :-)

Stupid Computer

Well my computer is broken again, same problem as last time, I'm going to have to take it in. I think its a hardware problem so it should be under warranty, thank god, whenever I get it fixed I'll let you know how it went. I'm about to leave my brothers to head back home, :-) and :-( I had such a good thanksgiving here...

Traveling the day before Thanksgiving

Alrighty, so right now I'm waiting in front of Gate 91 at Orlando International Airport for my flight to Denver, Colorado to arrive and then, once I'm on the plane, depart. I arrived at the airport quite early because my roommate's flight left around 10am and thought that I might as well catch a ride with her to the airport. This was all good and fine, 5 hours was a little extreme I thought, but hey you never know whats going to happen on the day before thanksgiving. So what happened? I had to sit and wait and hour to check in, not because there was a line but because you just couldn't check in until 10:51AM, and that whole process took about 5 minutes. I checked one bag. Then I walked to the security checkpoint, the line for that was about 3 minutes long. It took me 2 minutes to get throught that. Then I walked to my gate. I've been sitting her for over an hour now, just browsing the internet, I still have about two hours to wait... Whats all this stuff I hear about how packed the airports are on the day before thanksgiving and how long you'll have to wait in line. This was probably the fastest airport experience I've ever had, except for all the useless waiting... God I'm so bored...

I could give you an update on my life, but nothing really new has happened. I got a new piercing...two in fact lol. I'm not tellin where lol. Nah, its nothing bad I swear.
Works been OK. They weren't too pleased that I'm taking all this time off. I want to get a new job anyway so oh well.
School is going well, I had to take my math exam early last night, I'd actually be taking it right now as we speak if I wasn't flying out today... I think I did pretty well on it...
OoOoO I got my scholarship appeal approved. Hooray! There are a few things I need to do, meet with a counselor and an advisor and whatnot, but I can do all that. I'm just glad I got it back. It's not retroactive though. I won't get the $3,000 back from this semester, o well. I had to make this excruciatingly painful speech in front of this snobby nosed scholarship committee but everything turned out OK in the end.
As for life stuff, well right now I'm going to visit my brother in Colorado! Yay! I'll be leaving the 26th. I'll finally get to see snow again, its been forever, well two years... And I'm excited to see his new place.
I'll be going home for christmas too. I cant wait to see everyone. I'll blog more about that later.
I think I'll look up some ukulele tabs and play my uke in the airport. :-)

So I guess its not just me then

Apples and Oats broke up last night for the second time. Apples, a.k.a. Ape is my best freind in Florida and Oats was her boyfreind of ten monthes. So he broke up with her because he didn't feel the same way anymore, that was like a month ago, and she finally got over it about a week ago. Of course, she had been dating other guys and taken pictures, so Oats got jealous, thought he'd missed her, said his sorry's and baby I missed you's and she let him back into her life. Big mistake. Last night he said that it still didn't feel right and he just couldn't do it. Whats worse is he broke up with her over myspace, what a child. Apples said the break up hurt ten times worse the second time. She said she felt used and worthless. Didn't I just go through this ordeal myself with Brandon? I've realized that 90% of men are all the same... Manipulative, egotistical, self-absorbed, thoughtless assholes who treat women like worthless trash that they can use and throw away. Boy are they ever wrong. Karma will kick their ass, and they'll regret treating women like that....